中午，慢慢地走向凯希嘎特，向上穿过洛伊巴扎，在施瑞· 吉· 珠宝店遇见拉拉，茹阿珍卓和纳茹阿央纳，在家与舒塔·克依尔提和维萨卡度过令人愉快的时光，大约在20:15和茹阿达·莫汉、夏玛、维佳亚一起匆忙冲到茹阿达·茹阿曼庙宇，及时返回觐见奎师那·哥帕拉……温达文·比哈瑞的大儿子骑在马背上举行他的结婚议式，伴随着施瑞·茹阿达时尚乐队最新的主打歌曲，印度人跳舞跳的好像他们的神经系统严重受损，22:00将前往观看婚礼的开场。佳呀 呵！！在温达文圣地极乐的又一天！！佳呀 佳呀 施瑞 茹阿戴！！
在六天免费自由的国际互联网圣人联谊之后，我已经离开哈萨克斯坦博罗沃耶，坐在阿斯塔纳飞机场在我去阿拉木图的路上，然后是德里，纽约市，然后去奥斯汀，德克萨斯州参加由圣因卓杜姆纳·斯瓦米组织的圣人联谊音乐节。佳呀 哈瑞纳玛 桑克依尔坦 雅格亚 克依 佳呀！！
星期天飞行，星期一飞行，星期二飞行，星期三飞行，星期五飞行……令人兴奋的一周，热爱我在大地上的时光，特别是这里布茹阿佳的尘土……即使只有八个小时。前往美国加入圣因卓杜姆纳·斯瓦米和在奥斯汀的公司，德克萨斯州圣人联谊。哈瑞纳玛 桑克依尔坦 雅格亚 克依 佳呀！！
刚才和玛达瓦在圣人联谊静修中参与了深情的克依尔坦。Harer Nama Eva Kevalam !!
这听起来可能有一点儿怪诞……然而一首韵文从我青少年时期一直闪现在顽皮的心中，它是这样说的：“一，二，三，四，五，六，七……所有的好孩子到天堂去”……那来自阴间的什么地方？？哈瑞 奎师那！！心中有那么多的档案资料需要删除！！再见吧迪拜……起飞去莫斯科。Do Svi Danya （笑）
哈瑞 奎师那 哈瑞 奎师那 奎师那 奎师那 哈瑞 哈瑞
哈瑞 茹阿玛 哈瑞 茹阿玛 茹阿玛 茹阿玛 哈瑞 哈瑞
aham tvam sarva-papebhyo
moksayisyami ma sucah
施瑞 奎师那 桑克依尔坦 雅格亚 克依 佳呀！！
krsna-shakti vina nahe tara pravartana
Noon, slow walk to Kesighat, up through Loi Bazaar, met Lalla, Rajendra, Narayan at Sri Ji Jewellers, spent very pleasant time at home with Sruta Kirti and Visakha, dashed to Radha Raman around 20:15 along with Radha Mohan, Shyam, Vijay, came back in time to see Krishna Gopal .. Vrindavan Bihari's senior son .. riding on the horse in his marriage ceremony, Indian people dancing as if they all had severely damaged nervous systems, accompanied by latest hits of the Sri Radha Funky Tunes Band, at 22:00 will head over to see the start of the wedding. Jai Ho !! Another blissful day in Sri Vrindavan Dham !! Jai Jai Sri Radhe !!
Oh .. I forgot to mention that tonight we went to the temple for the 20:00 darshan, saw the deities, prayed, left the temple.
THEN I HAD MY VRINDAVAN EXPERIENCE !!
My shoes got stolen :)
Not bad, first time in 36 years !!
At the wedding ... Aroma of Tandoori Nan, Sabji, lots of loud music ... And many wiggling people.
"The root 'vraja' means 'to walk'. Anyone who is always walking the path of satisfying Krsna is a Vrajavasi. One should chant the Lord's holy name after submitting to a Vrajavasi if one does not wish to drown in the ocean of nescience. By f...ollowing in the footsteps of the Vrajavasis, one will attain the world of Krsna consciousness. If one is unable to worship Krsna constantly, then one will lose the sense of subordination to the Vrajavasis. My spiritual master, Sri Radharani, Sri Nanda-Yasoda and Sri Sridama, Sudama - all are Vrajavasis." Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Saraswati Thakura.
Yesterday I visited the building where I began my Krishna consciousness.
41 years ago I met the devotees on harinama in Rochester, New York. They invited me to come back to their temple in Buffalo. So I rode back with them, walked into the temple ... first time ever ... on a Friday night, and stayed.
The area has become quite trendy. I spoke to a grey haired gentleman reading a book at a cafe. ...When I asked him if he was around during the time of the Krishna's he was full of fond remembrance.
The building pretty much looks the same. It was built in 1910.
I really, really look different. I was built in 1950.
Consciousness .. a little different also.
Went downtown looking for the street where we spent so many hours on Harinama. Well .. all those buildings that would hear the echo of the kirtan are gone.
I walked up to one man and said,
"I've been away for a while ( 40 years ) .. do the Hare Krishna's still sing down here?"
He gave me a blank look and said, "Who?"
I am thankful to Srila Prabhupada that I fell into his net in Buffalo. I pray that he gives me the chance to show my gratefulness by allowing me to be his servant, birth after birth.
Arrived last night to a cool wet Vraja, today the temperature climbed to 39 degrees, then suddenly .. darkness, strong wind, thunder, a steady light rain for two hours, sitting on the porch, japa, cool breezes, cool japa filling the Vraja evening, the wind chimes sound like the ankle bells of dancing village girls, Vayu loudly sings his kirtan as He gracefully dances through Vraja, the trees of Radha Tila bend and sway like our youthful dance in kirtan, Vraja rains soothe the burning in my heart, my soul awakens, and dances in the Shyam-like darkness of Vrindavan.
In hot Vrindavan, the gusty rains upon the night, at morning bless with cool, a richness of green which soothes the eye and mind, the pleasure of my ear and heart the many gentle singers of Vrinda's chorale, delicate servants, delicate Vraja, all beheld, early in the morning.
We are driving through Palwal on the way to Delhi. The residents of Palwal do insane things on the highway and there is a standing joke that all crazy people take birth in Palwal. Our driver, Rohit, just loudly declared that the Paramatma in the hearts of the Palwal people is getting so annoyed and frustrated that He's saying, "hurry up and die .. Take birth as a dog or hog .. Then you'll behave properly on the road !!" When he said that I laughed till I cried. :)
I am in Almaty, Kazakhstan. It is brilliantly sunny and quite warm. Central Asia, such an interesting mélange of people and culture. Shortly, I'll be joining a camel caravan to the capital Astana and then to Barovoye for a meeting with our leaders from central Asia.
Hare Krishna from Kazakhstan!!
I have left Borovoye, Kazakhstan after 6 days of internet free sadhu sanga. Sitting in the Astana airport on my way to Almaty, then Delhi, then NYC, and then to Austin, Texas for the sadhu sanga festival organised by HH Indradyumna Swami. Jai Harinama Sankirtan Yajna Ki Jai !!
Sunday flight, Monday flight, Tuesday flight, Wednesday flight, Friday flight ... exciting week, love my hours on the earth, especially here in the dust of Vraja ... even if for only 8 small hours :) Heading to the USA to join HH Indradyumna Swami & Co. at the Austin, Texas sadhu sanga. Harinama Sankirtan Yajna Ki Jai !!
I am outside of Austin at Wimberley, Tx, at the weekend sadhu sanga retreat organised by HH Indradyumna Swami. Many glowing vaisnavas and vaisnavis are here eager to become absorbed in Sri Krishna's holy names. Also present are an abundance of deer and raccoons ... they are everywhere. Maybe they will also dance and chant in the sankirtan of the holy names !!
Just participated in deep Kirtan with Madhava at the sadhu sanga retreat. Harer Nama Eva Kevalam !!
PS ... All the raccoons and deer started dancing !!
Visiting family in Nashville, TN. My mom is well ... she sends her love and heartfelt prayers to all the devotees.
Visited Mark Israel today at "The Donut Plant." People from all over the earth make pilgrimage to his shops while they visit NYC. Everyday over 3,000 insanely delicious donuts are offered to Gaura Nitai, Jagannatha, Radha Govinda, and Srila Prabhupada ... And the patrons feast on delicacies of pure Krishna Prasadam !!
Govinda Swami And after Indradyumna Swami and I honoured the prasad ... Mark said in disbelief, "I never saw anyone eat so many donuts！”
Tonight .. dancing Gaura Arati .. Nanda Nandan and I played the drums, in-sync, like the old days in Vrindavan, you could hear the Maha Mantra .. loud and clear, Radha Govinda were very, very beautiful, Their garlands had gardenias as big as my head, Gurudeva gave a beautiful class on the history of Sri Sri Radha Govinda, had to leave as Acyuta Gopi was settling into kirtan ... and yes ... cannot forget the donuts, another wonderful day at the Radha Govinda Festival in NYC.
Visited HH Sivarama Swami for a day in Toronto. Spoke at length with mother and aunt, aged 97 and 95 years !! Amazing, amazing women. Now on my way back to Radha Govinda. Hare Krishna !!
Life's desires should never be directed toward sense gratification. One should desire only a healthy life, or self-preservation, since a human being is meant for inquiry about the Absolute Truth. Nothing else should be the goal of one's works.
Therefore, with one-pointed attention, one should constantly hear about, glorify, remember and worship the Personality of Godhead, who is the protector of ...the devotees.
With sword in hand, intelligent men cut through the binding knots of reactionary work [karma] by remembering the Personality of Godhead. Therefore, who will not pay attention to His message?
O twice-born sages, by serving those devotees who are completely freed from all vice, great service is done. By such service, one gains affinity for hearing the messages of Vāsudeva.
Visiting the Russian Consul In Dubai is like visiting hell during the summer. Govinda Swami Missing the team at Radha Govinda Loka !!
Srila Bhaktivinode Thakura has written：
How much power does the name of Krsna possess? My heart constantly burns in the fire of worldly desires, like a desert scorched by the sun. The holy name, entering within my heart thorugh the holes of my ears, showers unparalleled nectar upon my soul.
The holy name speaks from within my heart, moves on the tip of my tongue, and constantly dances on it in the form ...of transcendental sound.
My throat becomes choked up, my body violently trembles, and my feet move uncontrollably.
Rivers of tears flow from my eyes. Perspiration pours from my body. My body thrills with rapture, causing my hair to stand on end and my skin to turn pale and discolored. My mind grows faint, and I begin to experience devastation. My entire body is shattered in a flood of ecstasies.
While causing such an ecstatic disturbance, the holy name showers liquid nectar on my heart and drowns me in the ocean of divine love of Godhead. He does not allow me to understand anything, For He has made me truly mad and has stolen away my heart and all my wealth.
Such is the behaviour of Him who is now my only shelter. I am not capable of describing all this. The holy name of Krsna is independent and thus acts at His own sweet will. In Whatever way He becomes happy, that is also my way of happiness.
The holy name is the bud of the flower of divine love, the abode of devotion’s wonderful mellows. Such is the power that He manifests, that although He displays His power only slightly, He reveals His own divine form and qualities, steals my heart and takes it to Krsna.
Being fully manifest, the holy name of takes me to Vraja and reveals to me His own love dalliance. He gives to me my own divine, eternal body, keeps me near Krsna and completely destroys this mortal frame of mine.
The name of Krsna is touchstone, a mine of all devotional mellows, eternally liberated, and the embodiment of pure rasa. When all impedimets to the pure chanting of the holy name are taken away and destroyed, then my happiness will know its true awakening.
This may sound a bit whacky ... but a rhyme from my youth has been passing through the wicked mind. It goes like this:
"One, two, three, four, five,six, seven .. all good children go to heaven" ... Where in the heck is that from ?? Hare Krishna !! So many files in the mind need to be deleted !! Bye Bye to Dubai ... Taking off for Moscow. Do Svi Danya :)
To A Vrindavan Kitchen Survivor, Master Radha Caran
Master Radha Caran, you inhaled the acrid black smoke of the kitchen. My brother, I inaugurated it.
Originally, the kitchen was directly behind the wall of Prabhupada's garden. One day someone brought bamboo scaffolding that was coming down from the newly constructed gurukula building.
The instruction, "use it as cooking fuel."
Well, seeing how my biggest problems in life have arisen from following funky instructions ... I obeyed.
I placed the bambos in the fire and each segment would explode like a gunshot. This created an ungodly racket that disturbed His Divine Grace.
After 30 minutes I turned and beheld Prabhupada's servant Upendra, standing with crossed arms, smiling softly and benevolently. Then, with a honey sweet voice, he said,
"You are the most fortunate man in the world as your spiritual master Srila Prabhupada has sent you a personal instruction."
My heart jumped, anticipating the sweet words of nectar from His Divine Grace.
Upendra continued, "Prabhupada's message is this,
"get out of this kitchen by 2 PM and never come back again. If you are not out he will personally come and move you out."
I was shocked !! Where to go ??
The answer, the the new gurukula building. The corner room, ground floor, which was just a classroom.
So as ..
"in one sweet dream, I picked up my pots and got in my limousine ( rickshaw ) and went to that room."
"if I don't follow the instructions of His Divine Grace, soon I'll be away from here .. so I stepped on the gas and wiped my tears away."
So, one sweet dream came true, that day, yes it did.
And with faith I looked at that empty room and thought,
"one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, all good cooks they go to heaven" ... as I listened to the temple bells and the Vraja crickets fading in the background.
The next morning I had to cook in a kitchen that had only regular class room windows and no ventilation.
As the holy Gaurangi of the Carolina's would say, "Gawd" ... it was truly unholy,but it was seva to guru and vaisnavas.
As I sat in that dark abyss of a new unlit room during mangala arati ... a great shining vaisnava entered the black hell-hole kitchen.
I think Krishna first made that kitchen, and after He sorted it all out, He created Hell.
The shining vaisnava was Tamal Krishna Goswami.
I thought, "here comes the sun king.
He told me that with the prospect of me cooking that,
"ev'ry body's happy, ev'ry body's laughing."
So, with great pomp and ceremony he established a chair in the middle of the kitchen and started having the brick masons build the ovens I would cook upon.
I tried to explain that exhaust fans were needed but Goswami Maharaja's hands were financially tied by our temple president.
The president .. He was a mean mister swami. He was so austere he slept in the park and shaved in the dark.
Never-the-less .. our valiant sun king Swami instructed me to start the fires and he would over-see the cooking. When the smoke filled the room to a certain level, about 6 inches above the floor, and we were all gasping for oxygen, I looked for our valiant sun king swami to ask instructions,
But ... he went out through the kitchen window, protected by my kitchen spoon, I sat and sucked my thumb in wonder, in the dark of that smoky room.
Then I turned to Upend Bengali .. my kitchen assistant.
He said said he'd always been a cooker, work in 15 kitchens a day, and though he though I knew the answer, well I knew, but I could not say.
I later quit the cook department, a pujari .. a steady job, Upend's wife Pushpa tried to help me ... Dear Radha Caran Prabhu, the kitchen work was always harsh during those days, wood fires, smoke, black pots, every pore of the body filled with soot and grime.
I guess there are a few people out there who don't appreciate how guys like you and I would cook when it was 50 degrees centigrade.
But at night, after all of the yajna serving the deities and the vaisnavas, I could sleep peacefully. I was serving devotees, the essence of life.
Cooking under those circumstances I felt;
Once there was a way back homeward, once there was a way to get back from home, so I'd tell my mind, "sleep, little monster, do not cry, and I will sing a lullaby, let Gauranga's slumbers fill your eyes, and at mangala arati Radhe's smiles await you when you rise, so sleep evil mind, do not cry, and I will sing a lullaby."
So we'd chant, and chant, and chant, and ... still try to chant.
Thats why when we worked together in the kitchen I always told you,
"Prabhu ... You're gonna to carry that weight, carry that weight, a long time, Prabhu, you're going to carry that weight, carry that weight, a long time.
I never gave you my recipes, I only sent you my wooden ladles, and after cooking for the celebrations we'd break down .... but we'd be so darn happy that we'd served vaisnavas.
We'd cook those love filled feasts. I cooked mainly for the gurukula kids who had to undergo all the austerities and tribulations of life in Vrindavan.
In the dark of that that ghastly kitchen you would look down your nose at me, and Radha Caran, that is a really, really, alpine ski slope long look, and you'd sing,
"oh yeah, mon dieu, I know you going to be in my nightmares, tonight !!
And to make peace when it was 50 degrees C or 125 F degrees in that hell smoke filled kitchen we'd chant:
All you need is Krishna ... Hare Krishna !!
And then on that one mystical day ... you and I heard the unseen voice from the sky, the akash vani that profoundly told us:
"And in the end
The feasts you make
Are equal to the feasts you take"
Love, Love, Love ... Dedicated to one of my oldest friends, cooking comrades, fellow survivors, Radha Caran Prabhu.
With a little help from my friends,
Somewhere near Parikrama Road ...
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare
Rasabihari, Indranuja and I stayed together in a hotel last night in Kazan. The next door neighbours decided to party at 3 AM ... I'm starting to agree that sleep deprivation makes you koo koo. Read CC this morning in class regarding Lord Caitanya and Vallabha Bhatta ... Have been wanting to go through it recently to help get a grip on my pride. Afternoon we will have a session somewhere on the mighty Volga with the beautiful Tatar Vaisnavas. Hare Krishna!!
Had a real nice public program on the main walking street in Kazan this evening. I spoke, then led kirtan for around an hour, then gave the microphone to Akincana and he sang for an hour.
Many devotees were dancing, Bauman Street had many, many people watching, smiling, and joining in.
After, one sincere man came to me and told me that he was a sniper in the army, was soon going out on a mission, and that he felt his heart had died.
I spoke to him, encouraged him to chant, and gave him a Bhagavad Gita. He was so deeply grateful that he walked back to where we were staying and gave me a big hug.
By Prabhupada's mercy his heart will again come to life by the saving touch of Sri Krishna !!
aham tvam sarva-papebhyo
moksayisyami ma sucah
Sri Krishna Sankirtan Yajna Ki Jai !!
krsna-shakti vina nahe tara pravartana
The fundamental religious system in the Age of Kali is the chanting of the holy name of Krsna. Unless empowered by Krsna, one cannot propagate the sankirtana movement.
Had a nice program with the devotees from Cheboksay this morning. Pleasant Kirtan and more reading about Lord Caitanya and Vallabha Bhatta. After class devotees were downstairs outside the apartment building and one fellow fell off the 5th floor balcony .. Landed at the devotees feet .. They chanted And he died. He got mercy, even though he was full of Vodka. Let's pray that Sri Krishna's holy names have blessed him with a human birth so he can get another chance to perfect his life with Krishna consciousness.
For a while I have been looking at my stockpile of pride and have not been so satisfied that it is as abundant as it is.
So here in Tatarstan we have been reading CC Antya Lila, a particular story of a very great vaisnava and scholar who was having his own issues coping with feelings of pride.
He found himself being rejected by the society of Lord Caitanya's devotees. Then, by the grace of Mahaprabhu he had some realisations.
Reading this lila has helped me some. Maybe it can assist you all as well. Let us all take shelter of the mercy of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu .....
“He accepted my invitation with His other devotees, and He was kind to me. Why has He now changed so much here at Jagannatha Puri.”
Being very proud of my learning, I am thinking, ‘Let me become victorious.’ Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, however, is trying to purify me by nullifying this false pride, for a characteristic of the Supreme Personality of Godhead is that He acts for everyone’s welfare.
“I am falsely proud, advertising myself as a learned scholar. Therefore Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu insults me just to favor me by cutting down this false pride. He is actually acting for my benefit, although I interpret His actions as insults. This is exactly like the incident in which Lord Krishna cut down Indra, the great, puffed-up fool, to correct him.”
Thinking in this way, the devotee approached Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu the next morning, and in great humility, offering many prayers, he sought shelter and surrendered at the lotus feet of the Lord.
He admitted, “I am a great fool, and indeed I have acted like a fool by trying to demonstrate my learning to You. My dear Lord, You are the Supreme Personality of Godhead. You have showed mercy to me in a way just befitting Your position by insulting me to cut down all my false pride.”
“I am an ignorant fool, for I interpret as an insult what is meant for my benefit. In this way I am just like King Indra, who out of ignorance tried to surpass Krishna, the Supreme Lord.
My dear Lord, You have cured the blindness of my false pride by smearing my eyes with the ointment of Your mercy. You have bestowed so much mercy upon me that my ignorance is now gone. My dear Lord, I have committed offenses. Please excuse me. I seek shelter of You. Please be merciful unto me by placing Your lotus feet on my head.”
Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu said, “You are both a greatly learned scholar and a great devotee. Wherever there are two such attributes, there cannot be a mountain of false pride.
Giving up your false pride, worship the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Krishna.
Abandoning your offenses, chant the Hare Krishna maha-mantra, the holy names of the Lord. Then very soon you will achieve shelter at the lotus feet of Krishna.”
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu is always eager to see everyone in the material world happy. Therefore sometimes He chastises someone just to purify his heart.
Had a program one street over from Lenin's birthplace and home. It was a small, packed to the brim, cultural hall, and the kirtan rocked.
I told the folks that being bodies, eating meat, enjoying sex, and getting intoxicated was very old fashioned as it has been going on since the beginning of time.
Thus I extolled the glories of the great revolutionary tavarish Lenin and told the people to also be revolutionaries ... give up all the old dry stuff and start practicing Krishna consciousness.
Full of young bright faced Russians becoming devotees.
Kazakhstan Yatra ... Wake Up !!
Good Bye to Mahidhara and all the kind devotees of Ulyanovsk. Now we are going to follow our nose down the highway to Penza. Hare Krishna !!
My dear friend Elvis Presley just gave me another chance to preach Krishna Consciousness on television here in Penza.
After the interview I started Googling my dad, Bob Neal,
the station manager at WMPS in Memphis, and a DJ that had two very popular radio programs in the 1950's.
A friend of dad, Sam Phillips, started a recording firm in Memphis called Sun Records.
A young fellow from Mississippi, who was going to high school in Memphis, recorded a song a Sun Records. His name was Elvis Presley.
He was a white boy, who sang with a black man's soul, and was as nice a kid that you could ever meet.
I can attest to his kindness ... because for a while he treated me like his kid brother.
One of his friends, Dewey Phillips, the character "Hughy Calhoun" of the broadway musical "Memphis," started playing Elvis's first recording, "That's All Right Mama" on his night program Red, Hot and Blues at WHBQ.
The song made people crazy.
My dad was playing the same recordings during the day at WMPS.
The song made people crazy.
And the result was the beginning of a revolution.
Dad also played the first tracks of Johnny Cash, another great talent, another revolution.
And for a short while dad became the agent for Elvis and Cash.
My blessed grandfather went to Africa and started a Christian mission in 1912. To take such a step of faith 100 years ago was certainly revolutionary. He was such a saintly fine man that he was like my first guru. When I was young, and he would come home from Africa, he would always heap his love upon me.
And my dad, God bless him, he also was a revolutionary in music. That revolution of music that has been going on ever since.
My dad stopped being a DJ when his station went to Top 40 format and dad was no longer free to play the music that he loved.
And my mom, my goodness, she is a phenomena that you have to experience to understand.
Then I met my eternal master, Srila Prabhupada ... the embodiment of a spiritual revolutionary of love, spiritual peace, truth and compassion. He changed my heart.
Seems I come in a line of revolutionary people, both spiritual and material.
And as one noble poet has written, "It keeps me looking for a heart of gold .... but I'm getting old."
Please, everybody say a prayer for me that I'll conduct my life appropriately, develop humility, develop tolerance, develop the power to give respect to every soul that walks this earth...
And bless me that once and for all I will get rid of the filthy quality of pride ... of wanting respect for myself.
Then maybe with your mercy, and the mercy of these previous revolutionaries, I may also do something to honour the tradition of revolutionaries and have the blessing to touch another souls heart with love for Sri Krishna.